I work at a grocery store and I have this assistant manager who is very sarcastic and strict with certain rules. She’s a “I tell it like it is” sort of gal. She’s very intimidating to a lot of people. I was intimidated by her as well, but as time passed, i began to see and understand her dry humor and now i’m beginning to like her.
Well just last night, i somehow found myself almost in tears for her as i recalled the day before..
[ It was around 10am, she came to say hello to me and i saw that her face was slightly more bulbous on one side. My first thought was that she had gotten into an accident. I didn’t want to burden her and went about my instructions and tasks for the day. She got an urgent call from her mom, and went to call her back. Then, around 3pm, she had an emergency to take care of, called for more supervisors, and left the store. Early, early, next morning, i came in for the night shift and sat down with my supervisor, who’s also a female, who noticed how “out of shape” my assistant manager looked today. This is how the conversation pretty much went:
A: ” What’s up with her always coming in and looking like she’s beat up every night?”
Me: ” I don’t know much about her personal life, but i do know that she has a kid. I always thought she just couldnt sleep at night”
A: ” That’s the excuse she always uses to cover up the fact that there’s domestic violence going on in the house. I feel sorry for the kid.”
Me: “…What?…. That can’t be…”
A: ” Can’t you tell? Just look at her face. You know everybody’s talking, and i want to say that i do feel sorry for her, but i don’t because she chooses to stay with the guy and he’s not doing anything to support her. She makes enough money to support herself, but how much can you really take living under the same roof with your mom, boyfriend, and kid?”
Me: (thought long and hard about the turn of events and the more i thought about it, the more i could see that my supervisor was right… her face wasn’t just bulbous, it was BRUISED, she doesnt just look tired when she comes into work, she looks like she’s got two slightly BLACK EYES, she talks way more than she needs to when she’s near people, almost like pouring her heart out in a sense, and she won’t trust anyone…)]
I quickly dismissed myself after mentioning i needed to finish my work. As i worked, i thought about her more and more. I cried inside for her, and wanted to hug her or just help her in any way i could.
She came in later that morning. I waited until she was alone and i asked her if everything was ok. I admitted i was worried, buy just about yesterday, not what i know.. She told me that she had a panic attack, but her child was safe, and said she appreciated me asking her…
She looks so much more fragile now… And I now have a new view.. Not a pretty one, but, it’s nice to be reminded that other people do have it worse than you. I’ve been humbled once again with this knowledge…
“Come with every wound and every woman you’ve ever loved; every lie you’ve ever told and whatever it is that keeps you up at night. Every mouth you’ve punched in, all the blood you’ve ever tasted. Come with every enemy you’ve ever made and all the family you’ve ever buried and every dirty thing you’ve ever done; every drink that’s burnt your throat and every morning you’ve woken with nothing and no one. Come with all your loss, your regrets, sins, memories, black outs, secrets. I’ve never seen anything more beautiful than you.”—
I had the weirdest, most fucked up dream to date, imo last night.
There is this girl that i hate, and in my dream, she snuggled up with me in bed, begged me for sex and I GAVE IT TO HER and i was content with the whole thing! She didn’t know what the fuck she was doing and even threatened to beat me up if i said anything to anyone… wtf is wrong with me… what could possibly SPAWN this thought process? I DESPISE this chick! Ugghh… nothing makes sense anymore.. and i can’t tell this to my boyfriend… no way in hell…